Okay so I've been making the movie for my mom's 60th birthday and it's been really tough. I don't know why I have been so emotional over it but, it's been really hard to look at all the pictures especially right around 1980 1982....basically I've been a basket case for the last week thinking about how we had to suffer so much it's just really hard. I was looking at this darling little picture of the 5 kids together and I just started crying! What is wrong with me? Why I am feeling all this emotion now? But I can't help but think: What was wrong with us? We were so dang cute!!!! I also am so angry that I didn't get to grow up with my brother and I feel like both of my brothers have had hard times in their lives recently and I don't know how to be there for them and to have relationships with them now. I wish it were easy like it was when we were little!
I have also been really missing my grandpa! This is my favorite picture of him... he was so handsome. I miss how he was always there. He was the one that went to all my recitals and took me to so many daddy/daughter dates. He bought me my first car and my first viola. He made me feel special and pretty. He was the one that took me to Lake Powell every year with the YM/YW. I loved going to the swap meet or the barder with him... I just miss having him around. He was the father figure to me in those early years of the 80's when I felt so alone and hurt and scared and he was just there and loved me and cared about me. I miss you Grandpa! Thanks for being there for me!
I have also been really missing my grandpa! This is my favorite picture of him... he was so handsome. I miss how he was always there. He was the one that went to all my recitals and took me to so many daddy/daughter dates. He bought me my first car and my first viola. He made me feel special and pretty. He was the one that took me to Lake Powell every year with the YM/YW. I loved going to the swap meet or the barder with him... I just miss having him around. He was the father figure to me in those early years of the 80's when I felt so alone and hurt and scared and he was just there and loved me and cared about me. I miss you Grandpa! Thanks for being there for me! 
2 comments:
Those pics are so cute. Im so sorry you have had a hard time. Putting together pictures for that slide show, Im sure brings up a lot of emotions. Wish I could make it better
I love those old pictures. It does bring back memories... good and bad. I love the things you said about Grandpa. I felt the same way about him as I was watching the slide show. He was a big part of our lives. Love ya and hope you are feeling better.
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